I’ve been a fan girl for most of my life. It all kicked off way back the year 1999 when Westlife was just starting to take on the music scene, and I was in High School. I recall that certain “high” and thrill whenever I go home from school, holding bags and bags of freshly-bought posters and songhits and plaster them securely on my bedroom wall while staring at them like an idiot. This went on for several years.
Along came My Chemical Romance era, fell into obsession yet again but I was so sure I loved MCR and Westlife equally and dearly. Fast forward to maaany many years later, I found myself getting insanely hooked with the Kpop girl group Twice. I went to their concert in Manila last June with a wallet-wrenching VIP standing ticket. I was at my happiest and regretted nothing. Everything was worth it.
I retired from work on that same month last year to take a much-needed breather from corporate toxicity. The first few months of vacation were great, but I eventually began to succumb to boredom and desolation from being at home and alone all the time.
One morning of September, I was dispiritedly browsing through Facebook when I stumbled upon a video, which I initially thought was a dance practice of a newly debuted Kpop Group. I tapped on Play and got confused after hearing a familiar language. I thought I was hearing Tagalog? I finished the entire song with my mouth practically on the floor. I even showed the video to my husband since I was in disbelief. Was it for real? Did I really just watch a NON-CRINGEY, SYNCHRONIZED AF Filipino group?
The caption stated that the group’s name is SB19 who was trained under a Korean Entertainment Company. I played the video a few times more. Eventually, I was solely focusing on the boy with light Gray hair, the only one wearing a pair of shorts. He was the best dancer in my eyes.
It didn’t take me long before I found myself searching for more SB19 profile and content and I happily found their YouTube channel. In a matter of two days, I was able to watch all of their vlogs and memorize the lyrics to Tilaluha, Hanggang sa Huli and Go Up. I knew right there and then where this was all going ; my 33-year old fan girl heart has once again, found true love.
You see, being a stay-at-home wife is nothing sort of exciting. Everyday is a routine. You wake up, eat breakfast, play with your dog, do the laundry, do the dishes, do these and those, cook meals, play ML when hubby gets home, sleep. Reset. So on and so forth. Discovering SB19 has helped me cope with that day-to-day monotony. Listening to their songs has kept me going and moving. It gives me this immeasurable energy that I lack to complete each day with flying colors. At days when I’m extra bored, or maybe even out of my wits, I binge-watch their vlogs ’cause they’re hyper AF. It’s as though I’m transported into their midst and absorbing all this beautiful friction, giving my system enough power to survive.
I’m just a silent fan-girl, lurking in the corners of their Social Media accounts. Probably a bit aloof since I’m aware that I’m most likely one of the, if not the oldest in this blue ocean of young A’TINs. Supporting their music and their content makes me inexplicably happy. I want to be able to see them perform live, but seeing them before my eyes might possibly be too much for my heart to handle. But I’d really want to see them anyway. And I’m still hoping <3.
If in any case, my post has made you curious, I encourage you to listen to their songs and watch their Music Videos. By the way, their latest single is called Alab (Burning) which you can watch here. You can leave comments if you’d like, I’d be happy to tell you more about them. 🙂